| Jul. 21st, 2009 @ 10:21 pm (no subject) |
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I finally found the energy to go get a new anti-depressant prescription, and I have anti-depressants. That is good.
I am bad at re-newing the prescription, though, and that is less good. Worrying about running out of pills before I re-new them means I take one a day instead of the prescribed two a day.
Everything takes a lot of energy, including drinking water and making food. This includes food like cereal, pouring stuff out of a box into a bowl.
Not that it's really that.
It's going into the untidy kitchen, which I know is untidy and has been untidy and there may be clean dishes, but there will be dirty dishes too, and I will deal with some of them, and that may or may not use up the food-getting energy. And the whole day is tied up in small self-defeating loops like that. Everything. And so everything takes a lot more energy.
Today I mostly stayed on the internet all day. I sat on the sofa with my laptop in my lap and read journals and links and played gemcraft chapter 0.
I didn't go to the pub. I got a shower instead. It works out like that, somehow. the shower used up time and energy, but it was good. I feel better for it. I opened a new packet of soap and the new soap smells less nice than the soap in this packaging used to. Bah. I shall use perfume after a shower more often now, I think.
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Someone linked to a Douglas Hofsteader piece in the context of discussing sexism,A Person Paper on Purity in Language
and the piece made me uneasy, not with the obvious A-ha! It's supposed to make you uneasy! but with the un-examined assumption that comparing racism to sexism is a useful thing to do, because there's such a thing as a 'last acceptable prejudice' or possibly because there's no such thing as 'intersectionality', which would mean that some people who are targets of racism are targets of sexism as well.
It was well-made, and still very wrong. Racism is not over, it's not as un-acceptable as it should be, and I read that piece yesterday, and thought of two things -- one, a piece in a UK newspaper where somebody objected to blonde women being randomly stopped-and-searched by police on the street, as an anti-terrorist measure. But seemed entirely okay with the stop-and-search which never works anyway when it's targetred at racially-profiled people, that is, black or arab-looking people.http://spiralsheep.livejournal.com/305037.html
Or the incident described in a blog about Native American children's literature of being stopped by police for driving while brown.
http://americanindiansinchildrensliterature.blogspot.com/2009/06/home-for-awhile-racial-profiling.html
I had those in mind as clear examples, recent ones.
Then today I got on the internet and learned that a Harvard professor was arrested for attempting to break into his own home. Arrested after he showed the police his ID. A black Harvard professor.
So yes, I didn't need to remember an old example, because a new one is already here, that is how over racism is.
*sigh*
I have added some links, although not really enough. |
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